When your marathon feels like a never ending sprint
For those of you that know me in real life, you know we are always runnnnnning. Ok, not literally-I hate, LOATHE running. I tried C25k blah blah blah and while I long to experience the zen and bliss of the runners high, I hate it. I digress…as I was saying, we are busy. I’m pretty sure our neighbors think we are nuts because we are seriously meeting ourselves coming and going.
Summertime rolls around and while life slows down in the heat of the summer for most people, for us it is our sprint. We own a pool and spa store and when pools open here in Colorado, in May and June, pool supplies fly off the shelves and we are trying to sell as many as we can in its short season.
Anyways, wah wah wah I know, but couple that with baseball practices and games and family wanting us to come visit AND trying to squeeze in some family time and maybe even a family vacation it seriously just feels like I want to collapse into a head every single night. Needless to say, the routine of the school year when I was getting up to work out every morning and having healthy meal plans on the table feels like a lost cause.
What’s a girl to do?
So what do I do, give up? No, instead I tell myself every night when I fall into bed that tomorrow is the day. Get up, workout, make better choices. And yet every morning for the past eleventy hundred mornings I find the excuse. I don’t do it and then I beat myself up all day. Repeat ad nauseam.
I know what I need to do. I even have a day here and there where I jump out of bed, chug my pre workout and do it. Even those days though, usually end in a pile of tacos or equally unhealthy choices by the end of the day.
I know this sounds like all gloom and doom but I’m getting to a point and a little light in the tunnel. Today I realized after getting on a chat with one of my push coaches, that 1) I am not alone in the trudge through the sludge and 2) making one change everyday IS ACTUALLY enough to make big changes. Not everyday has to be perfect and taking things one step at a time really is ok.
It is ok to just BE
I have been carrying this weight for weeks of trying to get back on track and swallowing guilt for not being the example that I want to be for others. The honest to God truth, is that I can still be on track and not be perfect. I can also still be an example for other simply by trying every single day and NEVER giving up. But the best thing I can do, I recognize that my situation can be change 180 degrees simply by changing my perspective and finding the postive!
SOOOO to wrap up my Friday night ramblings…if you are where I am and feeling like you are failing around every corner, know that you aren’t. Stop waiting for things to getting better, stop looking for that light at the end of the tunnel. I’ve learned that MOST of the time, that light comes when you change your perspective and light that bitch up yourself!